mp3 theory.

life is too short to put up with anything but the things that are the best for you emotionally, physically, mentally, etc.

Time to cut off the fat, so to speak.

"Life is good. Be happy. Let it go." -B. Mac

Fast walkers annoy me. Why you gotta walk so fast? Slow down! When I hear rapid footsteps behind me it bugs me. What is the point of walking fast unless you're late for a meeting or have explosive diarrhea? Slow down, enjoy the scenery. Shoot.

Went to E&O trading company yesterday. Fail. The food was not that good. The conversation was excellent, if a bit serious. Today I will be taking part in some german food and beer with an old friend. As long as there is beer, I know that it will be good. EDIT: I had the boar. It was straight nasty. I will no longer be adventurous. I will stick to what i know is good. The beer was fucking excellent though. However, beer+4 hours of sleep = not a safe way to drive home (don't worry, was not drunk. The beer simply made me more sleepy)

If a friend commits a violation of what the aspects of friendship that you hold as important, how do you forgive them? Can you forgive them? In the past year, certain people who I thought were close friends did some things that went against certain aspects which I consider to be very important things in any friendship. In both cases, I went as far as to talk it out and figure out some common ground. In one case, it was kind of figured out. In another, nothing happened; which is sad because it showed me things about that friend (it's sad when you think you know someone..but I'm simply indifferent at this point) Another situation similar to this that doesn't involve me has come up. It's very interesting to see it from an outside pov after having been in a similar situation myself. How does one forgive their close friend? You can argue that as a close friend, that person should have at least earned the right to be given a second chance, right? You can also argue that as a close friend, you would not have expected them to have done what they did. I think you can (and should) forgive a close friend, but everything to me is cause and effect. A friend that does something serious that offends or upsets their friend should know that there will be a cooling down period. Upon further analysis, I'm still trying to figure out if someone should be forgiven cold turkey? Does that teach them something to learn? Life is a constant cycle of causes and effects - people should learn that the bigger the cause, the bigger the effect. I dunno. Maybe I expect too much from friendships. I do think that just because you are close friends with someone does not give you a free "fuck up" pass. If anything, it's even more insulting because they trusted you.

I also had a long discussion with a coworker today about what friendship is. At the very base of it, is friendship only a matter of location? If you're away from friends, is it just too difficult to keep the friendship going because there are no new shared experiences made? And why does distance have to do with this anyways? It seems to me like it's very easy to have a friendship diminish even if the person is in the same city as you. What sucks the most is the fact that once a friendship falls off, it's very difficult to get it back to the same level. It's almost as if people feel as though it's too awkward. I have friends from college who i've tried to get back in touch with, and it's so difficult. It's almost as if they are too weirded out by just a simple phone call. Oh wells.

New York in one more week! I'm excited.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. What am I thankful for? I suppose some things. Life is not a gift. It's something to work for, to strive for, everyday. The only thing I'm thankful for is family and my close friends. Everything else in my life I'm not satisfied with. I prefer it that way - I want to be motivated to keep trying. I want to learn and grow every fucking day. So for all of you that are sitting back and thinking about how great your life is - how lazy. Eat a pie and then get up and do something productive.

I'm going to cancel my myspace account and am going to start clearing out my facebook fyi.

Friday gonna hit up a party in the city. Can't wait. There will be a good amount of people there. Gonna get my drink on, hopefully some dancing in as well. Just gotta keep one large expectation from coming up and it'll be 100% fun.

Lemme make a statement on the state of this blog.

I know this blog is a mix of randomness...some serious, some funny, etc. This is just for the funny part.

I love stand up comedy. I love it. I can't stand the fact that Comedy Central barely shows standup anymore. Most of the time it's shows like scrubs, etc. Don't get me wrong. Comedy sitcoms are great, but I love stand up more. There are no cut scenes or inside jokes that you can only get if you watched the previous episode. Just one guy or girl, a microphone, and a stage. There isn't a lot that will make me seriously crack up, but stand up comedy will. I damn near pissed myself the first time I heard "Bring The Pain" by Chris Rock. I like stand up comedy because the comedians are usually being real with you. They talk about life and the parts that aren't so great. They make you laugh because you understand what they're talking about; they just package it well. I love that.

So my sense of humor, sarcasm and all, came/comes from that. I rant, I bring up obvious shit that I think is stupid, etc. But some people don't get it. And they're not afraid to tell me to my face. "Why are you so mad all the time?" "You're always mad and pissed off". Another person always says, "why are you yelling?" when I'm not yelling at all. I never got this. If I was angry, why would I and the person I'm talking to, be laughing?

Bottom line, if you can't tell when I'm really angry and when I'm trying to tell a funny story rant-style or give someone a hard time in a humorous way, then you don't really know me. I'm not trying to be a dick -- it's just the truth. Angry? I don't think no one really knows what anger is. Anger is when someone spits on your face. Ranting about why when you say to the Togo's guy "just a little mayo" he puts a shitload on both sides of the bread (who does that?) is COMEDY. People laugh because they know what you're talking about. Have you seen George Carlin, Jerry Seinfeld, Martin Lawrence, CHRIS ROCK, Bernie Mac??? Do you sit there and say "why are they so angry?"...well if you do, then at least I know why you say that to me..and that's because you don't have a sense of humor. And that's not me being funny. That's me being real. Okay okay, i'll be fair..maybe you have a different sense of humor. Maybe you're the kind of person who's spoiled as shit. Or maybe you're the kind of person who laughs his/her ass off at movies like Ace Ventura or any of the Police Academy movies. Or maybe you're naive. If any of those are the case, then yeah. Different sense of humor.

Why do I bring this up? Sense of humor is big to me. Huge. I'm talking like the size of my fucking cranium (a.k.a abnormally large). Sense of humor is what keeps you going when you have one of those days, or when life beats you down. It helps you roll with the punches and see the silver lining. Sense of humor is the one thing that I've always thought that at the very least, THAT's what I had. If you don't get my sense of humor, you don't get me. And while that doesn't mean that i'm better/worse than you, it does mean that we'll probably be acquaintances at best. I've found that out the hard way with some people.

I attempt to mix humor in with the real stuff that's going on in my head because I dont want this to be a cryptic emo diary. I'm no stand up comedian, but I admire their craft and if I can imitate it just a little bit, then coo -- anything to keep from being emo!!

That's what this blog is about. Reality and humor..sometimes more one than the other. If you think it sucks, no problem. No one's forcing you to read. There's a lot of free porn on the internet that's probably more entertaining. In fact, I'm sure of it. In fact, I'll go check to make sure right now.

Once again, a plethora of random comments.

I had a doc appointment today. On a drive that would normaly take me 25 minutes, it ended up taking me AN HOUR AND TWENTY MINUTES. Fucking ridiculous. I don't get how people sit in traffic for that long everyday. That's such a waste of time and of life. If your commute is that long you should seriously just install a mini fridge in your car and eat your breakfast on the way to work. Also invest in some audio books and maybe put your car on cruise control at 1 mph and then take a nap.

So of course I got there late because I thought a fucking HOUR would be enough, but no.

And BTW, all you drivers out there. You know those yellow lights on either side of the back of your car? Those things are to signal when you plan to turn or CHANGE LANES. There is a small lever on the left hand side of your steering wheel. I know a lot of you might not know where it is because it's probably covered in dust since you've never used it. You might want to try using it instead of just cutting in, you incompetent fucktard.
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Today is Election Day. This isn't just any election day - it's probably the most important election in our lives. There is simply too much going on - two wars, a busted economy, people losing their homes/jobs/health insurance, too much starvation and disease for someone to just not vote. Furthermore, there are state propositions that can alter abortion rights, gay marriage rights, if BART extends down to the south bay, etc. With all of this going on, how can you NOT vote? For those of you that are simply too lazy to vote or say that you're only one vote and that it won't count, give me a break. No offense, no actually, I DO mean offense. I do not understand how a person in these days can sit idly by and not participate in the decisions that affect their life, as well as the lives of their family, future family, friends, coworkers, etc. Voting is not fun and hip and all that, it's a pain, but it's your duty as a citizen to go out there and vote. You should consider it a privilege that you have the right to speak your opinions. Women and minorities have gone through pain, suffering, and even death in order to gain the right to vote. To come up with a lame excuse as to not take part in it is disgusting. Indifference and ignorance is never a satisfactory reason.

This will be continued later.

well, now that I have a little bit of time before I sleep, I might as well finish the blogs that I've been meaning to.

Okay, first up. Vegas.

Hotel:
Basically I went to vegas with Brendan and his family. His parents had used of a timeshare on the northern part the strip. The place was coo..kinda far north, but the place had two bedrooms and a full kitchen. Word. Total cost of the place: $0. I can definitely dig that.

Food:
Mr. H hooked it up. He straight HOOKED IT UP for some meals, so major props to him for that. I ate at the following:
-BOA steakhouse. Good steak, but Mr/Mrs. H said that Envy was better. I'll have to go there next time. The sauce was good, the mushrooms were fuckin' awesome. The drinks we had were really good, but I think one of them had something that had spoiled or gone bad in them cuz I didn't feel too good after (and not drunk not good either). Anyways, it was good, but I'm sure there are better steakhouses in Vegas.
-Canter's Deli in TI. Damn. I had myself a Brooklyn, which was a choice of meat with coleslaw (in the fuckin' sandwich). Came with a fat pickle and potato salad (my choice). Damn good. I would definitely come back here. It's like carnegie deli except less wait cuz you go up to a counter to order. Plus you can hear the music coming from a club next door. Word. Nothing like listening to some top 40 while you eat a pastrami sandwich.
-Buffet at Bellagio. It was good, but nothing new here. I think I'll do the wynn buffet from now on. Nevertheless the Bellagio and Wynn are both buffets that would definitely get the K. Tsang Seal of Food Approval, and that makes it good enough for me!
-Carnegie Deli @ the Mirage. Oh dAYAM! It looks like the Carnigie Deli is now open 24 HOURS. WERD. After a good poker session, went with Brendan to grab a bite here. I got a pastrami omelette and a side of veggies (I ordered the veggie of the day which turned out to be a bowl of wack ass boiled baby carrots). I got the same awesome waitress that I've been served by the last three times I've gone there. I love this place. Good pickles. Saw some asian club hootchies come in too. Nothing makes a meal better than asian club hootchies. Mmhmm.
-Vosges Chocolate place. Came here to spend my gift certificate that they hooked me up with after fucking up my order last time. Actually got some chocolates this time. Damn good too. Damn good. Next time I want to impress a girl and get some legit snacks-on-snacks, I'll definitely be ordering from here.
-Vons. Came here get some groceries to eat when we were hungry inbetween meals.
-Egg and I. Breakfast place off the strip. I went here when I met up my friend from SD, Nick, who's getting his advanced degree at UNLV. Dude can write like crazy too - no lie, his vocab is extensive to the point of crazy. Anyways, this place was good. Had myself an omlette and some toast. Our server was super nice. Good place fo sho.

Drinking:
-I had ONE drink this whole trip. Didn't get buzzed at all. That's gotta be a record for me in vegas.

Clubs/lounges:
-No clubs or lounges either. Another record.

Shopping:
-Got some nice things courtesy of my gambling winnings.

Overall an awesome trip. Got to talk a lot with Ricki, which was really cool. Big thanks to Mr. and Mrs. H letting me tag along on a family vacation. It was really chill and really cool. Just what I needed. BTW, I also saw the Bellagio fountain show like RIGHT in front of it, and fuck, it makes a HUGE difference. You can't watch that shit from the side. You gotta be right smack in front of it.
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I don't know what I want from life. But I can feel myself changing again. I feel like I'm...i dunno. I feel a bit more comfortable with everything. I'm no longer...I dunno. I feel like I'm starting to see life for what it is. Do you know what I mean? I'm having a hard time explaining it.

On the other hand, I feel like no one in my group of friends sees life how I see it. But then again, I think all of us in this group see life a different way. I do'nt think it's good or bad either way, I just find it interesting how different all of us are.

This whole section is dumb. I'll add more laters.
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